Hunger and binge

I’m hungry and got a headache but I don’t want to eat. So what do I do? I binge… (+_<)

• 120 kcal - crispbread
• 160 kcal - cheese and marmalade
• 160 kcal – cocoa

440 kcal.. Ghaaaaaaaaaa… Well well, at least it was a good day otherwise, had a fun time in school and everything went well.. Except for me being fat (/_;)

Lunch

I didn’t eat anything in school :) I only bought a Pepsi Max to survive the day. Tomorrow I bring water to school, I can’t go a whole day without drinking. And maybe that’s why I have gained a bit, I drink hot chocolate like every day in school.. That’s embarrassing :( But I’m a good girl now and I will never do that again :)

This is what I’ve had since school:

• Less than 5 kcal – Pepsi Max
• 65 kcal – McVitie’s digestive biscuit
• 700 kcal – Meatloaf, potato, boiled vegetable (not sure, don’t know how many g I ate, prolly not this much)
• Maybe 10 kcal – Bubblegum

I will try to not eat anything but maybe a banana tonight.. But I will be awake for like 7 hours more, so I hope that a banana will be enough :(

Breakfast

I’m eating porridge oats with extra fibre to breakfast today, that feels healthy. :)

370 kcal, including the milk.

Now I just have to keep not eating until I get home from school. No hot chocolate and no damn candy. I don’t want this belly to grow any bigger.

The new beginning

56.8 kg! My scale don’t lie.. This gotta change, I can’t keep gaining weight. I feel fat and discusting.. I hate myself when I’m fat..

Today my new life begin!!